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Do you believe God has a sense of humor?  If you believe that we are made in His image which includes the capacity to have His characteristics and some of us have crazy senses of humor then you have to believe God has one too.  However, do you believe God can also be sarcastic?  Yes, I do.

I haven’t shared this openly because it’s not one of those things that people talk about but I was thinking, if everyone is supposed to share all of their burdens then what is it about this burden that I can’t take to the throne and ask for help in prayer?  So I decided I would pray about it and give it to God.  And I did.  For at least a year.  I prayed about it then worried about it.  I gave it to God then I took it back.  I wrestled with God but mostly myself.  Now I can talk to myself all day but to wrestle with myself takes some force of nature but I have the scars to prove it.

One day I was fed up and decided I would have a real knock down, drag out argument with God.  He can take it right?  What did I have to lose?  Either he would tell me no and I would be in the same situation that I am in, He would strike me dead which would eliminate the problem for me OR he could bless me which would also eliminate the problem.  My biggest argument was that I had heard people from every walk of life tell about how they were down to their last dollar and they prayed and a few days later they got a check in the mail for the amount they needed. Blah blah blah.  It seemed like everybody had a similar story except me.

Well, I thought I’d just ask God why he sent all those other people help but he never sent me any and He knows what kind of struggle we go through every single week with money and bills and all the mess and drama that comes along with that.   I asked him why He didn’t think I deserved for Him to help me like this once in a while?  I wasn’t asking for a huge sum of money, just enough to get us over until the next check.  Or maybe just enough to pay off the medical bills or maybe just enough that I can get caught up on the power bill.  You know, I wasn’t asking for a trip to the Bahamas.

I decided I would be like Jacob and fight with God until he blessed me.  And you know what?  That week I got a check in the mail for $23.00.  I was already overdrawn by far past this amount so to me $23.00 was like God saying “yeah you want a check, I’ll send you a check?”  I had a laugh and repented of my snarkism and you know what?  The next week I got another check.  It was another $20.00 check but it was $20.00 more than I had last week.  And then you know what?  I got another check from selling one of my textbooks back.  And then I got a refund from school.  None of these were any amount to jump for joy over but the fact that God answered my prayers IS more than enough to jump for joy over.  He was telling me that He heard my prayers and I can trust him with this problem and maybe, just maybe if I stop taking it back from Him He can actually make something big happen.

So yeah, God has a sense of humor and I love it.  Even the sarcasm of God is wonderful.